With a gun to my Head.

So i think i have been given the option of updating my blog as regularly as i can......i should be relieved but i'm not!! there are so many things that trouble me! kai! where do i start from? ....maybe from the hypocrisy of the industry i work in...Entertainment or the hopelessness of the country i live in........or the more mundane issues of the heart...no?......i guess i'll just shoot! whichever comes to my fingertips first!

I resigned from my place of work on my birthday,i figured it was the best birthday gift i could give myself seeing as i was working in a very unhealthy environment....and errr! i dont mean it literally...infact many will say my former place of work had (dunno about now) the best bathrooms! lol!...Anyway,i digress! I was saying....yeah! I resigned....at the time it was the best decision i could have ever made! i mean who wouldnt want to resign from a place where you are constantly told off for ...wait for it....... doing your job "too well"......dont look at me! i didnt understand it too!

I was happy i was going to do what i was born to do....not Law...i know i talk a lot but thats not it!!....Entertainment! that'll be the correct answer! i mean i've always been in entertainment...i have worked in several offices that had stuff to do with entertainment....infact i used to be a photographic model myself even became a brand ambassador for a telecomms company...had my face splashed everywhere...concerts here and there....(oooh!those were good times...good times!!)...I digress again!....

So i thought i'd just concentrate and do it full time! i got a couple of job offers but i decided to go solo...maybe i shouldnt have cos the minute you rely on people to help make your business work...thats the point you lose your individuality!! kai!! i learnt that in our industry and turns out the rest of the world too......you are not allowed to say you dont like someone's art even if its killing your eyesight and eardrums...you are supposed to suck it up and say 'wow! fantastic song/movie!"

Well,i played it their way for a while and then i started to get pissed off!! i mean why cant i tell you to go to hell if thats how i'm really feeling? why cant i tell you to stop playing a potential weapon of mass destruction a.k.a your music? WHY??? So i developed a new way out.......i will say it as it is...you either put a gun to my head...in which case you 'might' end up going to jail...seeing as our country is messed up or.............that brings me to the state of the nation........

Which i will not talk about cos depression is not on my to-do list today!!!